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(no subject) [Mar. 16th, 2008|11:24 pm]
[Current Music |Rise - Ben's Brother]

I just finished my English project.
I'm legitimately depressed now
And I didn't even give anybody
In the story cancer.
(btw, for everyone that reads this
Who isn't aware of the project, aka Gayle,
I'm supposed to do a song of myself
And I did it about foster kids.)
I hope everyone else thinks it's depressing
Or else I'll look really stupid.
Not that I don't do that already.
Speaking of which, I bought hot pink jeans.
I'm mad pysched.
I <3 being ridikulus/black.
I'm so done with school.
Good things it's SPRING BREAK next week.
w00t! I'm asighted for the cruise
Aka terrrified. I hope I make friends.
I think I've already complained about that on here
So Ima shut up.
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(no subject) [Mar. 3rd, 2008|12:07 am]
[Current Mood |gloomygloomy]
[Current Music |Various Muppet songs]

Steve VanderArk makes me sad.
Why must he upset Jo?

I'm in the Poconos.
Ima skip school tomorrow.
That's generally fun.
What's not fun is being friend-dumped.
My friend Tiff has talked to me all year.
Apparently since I don't drink, we were
"bound to drift apart."
Now, I generally don't think
Drinking is a good idea,
But I'm not gonna condemn everyone that does.
Lord knows I do plenty to my body that isn't healthy.
Point is, I've never said anything to Tiffany
To imply I think she's a bad person
Because she drinks.
She doesn't even drink while she's here,
So it's not like I'm preventing it.
So what's the problem?
First Laura, now Tiff.
How long before I lose everyone?
Is it possible to keep friends you
Don't always agree with?
Am I doomed to joining FCA and burning books
Because I don't want to drink?
I don't want new friends.
I like the ones I have.
Are they going to get sick of me?

I'm excited for my cruise.
Not for wearing a bathing suit.
I need to buy some willpower.
Or some abs.
Regardless, I want to go dance.
But I'm afraid of dancing by myself.
I'll just close my eyes and pretend
Steve and lindsey are there.
That'll only mildly be a fire hazard.
Whatever. I'm excited to hang out with Jake.
Hopefully his crazy mom will let him come.

Apologies for the emo rant.
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(no subject) [Feb. 20th, 2008|09:25 pm]
[Current Mood |scaredscared]
[Current Music |Spice Girls]

 Me and my life are no longer friends.
I'll never be able to look Knoll in the eye again.
I need to be replaced with Ben 27 times over.

On the bright side,
Spice Girls =ed (equals in the past tense?) AWESOME!
I love me some reincarnation of my childhood
(She says like she 53 years old.)
'Twas a great show.
Much dancing and singing awesome songs and such.
I was happy.

Gayle and my birfday this weekend.
Ima pee my pants.
I'd cry.

Oh dear finals tomorrow.
*pees pants*
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(no subject) [Feb. 14th, 2008|10:28 pm]
[Current Mood |sadsad]
[Current Music |Johanna (Reprise) - Sweeney Todd]

 So some random bitching about the news:

So 4 people got killed at another college shooting.
That's the fourth this week.
I'm not gonna lie, I'm fucking scared shitless.
People always go "Oh it's 1 in a million.
It won't happen to you."  I'm sure that's
What those people thought.
And 4 in one week?  That doesn't sound
Like 1 in a million.  What if it's one of my siblings
Or my friends?  I wouldn't be able to deal.

So I was a bit rattled up about that so I
Thought I'd make myself feel better by
Making fun of people critizing Hannah Montana
For not wearing a seatbelt.  (Seriously, she has
Got to be the most wholesome girl in the business.
What is everybody bitching about?  Anyway.)
I was watching a newsvideo about it and it was all
Concert footage, and then it started showing clip
Of teenagers getting in car accidents and being thrown
Out the windows and shit.  Why would you ever show that
Without some kind of warning?  I don't want to see that shit.
I'm paranoid enough without it.

I hate people.
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(no subject) [Feb. 12th, 2008|07:46 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |No Such Thing - John Mayer]

Hey  kiddos.
Can I say how much I love Crush Week on Nickelodeon?
All they do is crush things!
It's basically the best thing in my life.
I thought I was going to be all
"Blehhhh Valentine's Day I'm lonely and emo."
But so far I don't particularly care.
Then again, the day hasn't happened yet.
Hopefully my apathy will endur.

Omg Gayle,
What if Ben Farbe's on the JV debate team
Since he's not allowed to do varsity?
I would pee my pants!

Ok, that was random.
Idk why I'm posting.
Mostly just procrastination.
So I'll just babble on and on.

Last night I was forced to attend a Bible study
Because I am queen of my youth group.
A lady asked if I was allowed to wear my dress to school
Since it was so short
So that was mildly exciting.
I need to learn not to open my big mouth.
I said one thing about being a trained babysitter
And now I'm in charge of restructuring the entire nursery program.
I don't even like children.

I majorly missed Steve today.
Him not being there made me realise
How biffle-ly we've gotten this year.
I was so lost and confused without him.
Spanish was mad boring.
As was Pre-Calc.
I couldn't even enjoy Tamby time.
The entire lunch table was bitchy
Because Andrew and Evan were fighting
And Kevin was being weird
And Steve wasn't there to shut them up.

Bah someone was supposed to take me
Now I have to wait till Thursday.
I'm soooo nervous for our Sweet Sixteen.
I'd die.

All the colleges want mayyyy bodayyyyyyyy.
Aka I've been getting lots of college letters.
I sort them on the weather in their location.
I'm a good student :)
I think I want to go to college in Baltimore.
That'd be nice.
It's nice in Baltimore.
They have an aquarium.
It's far enough from home,
But not terribly far.
And not too far south so that I
Might get my black-ass lynched.
Or I could pick a college based on academics.
But that'd be logical.
How the hell am I going to afford
Regular college AND law school?
I should start prostituting/
Writing essays/
Going to BCC for the first 20 years of college.
I'm going to be in debt until I'm 83.
Such is life.

That is all.
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(no subject) [Jan. 20th, 2008|11:10 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |Hey There Obama]


This made my life.

Genesis, however, destroys my life.
It tricked me into thinking I had a B in chem.
That wasn't very nice.

Speaking of which,
I should finish that slideshow
Or Ben will beat me with a shovel.
He's liable to do that sometimes.
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(no subject) [Jan. 19th, 2008|02:22 am]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |The Black Parade - MCR]

oh midterms....

They don't exist. I'm super excited to have a B in debate. Its gonna be brilliant. I have no idea what
my grade is in that class, so such is life. I think I should get arthritis extra credit points. Too bad Knoll hates me :)

Oh gym. That doesn't really require an explanation.

By what must literally be an act of God, I now have an 89 in that class. I might actually have a shot at an A this marking period. What the Jebus?!?! Now I feel like I really need to do well on this midterm. Which I won't, so all
of my hopes and dreams will be crushed. How did I go from a 66 to an 89?!?!

Im flirting with the line between an A and a B. I won't cry if I get a B.


History:I'm basically guaranteed an A in there. *knock on wood*

Theory = un piece de cake

13th period + friends with andrew + have my own opinions = F.
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(no subject) [Jan. 16th, 2008|08:30 pm]
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]
[Current Music |Kimya Dawson]

I'm so madddd.
I'm mostly mad at myself.
Ever since my panic attack I've been so shitty.
I got ranked fourth.
UGH could I kill another legacy?!?!
Why do I stutter like a freaking two year old.

I generally hate the world.
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(no subject) [Dec. 14th, 2007|10:54 pm]
[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]

Interesting word.
What's mature, really?

Is it mature to post mean things about people
On a livejournal after accosting them
For saying mean things about you behind your back?

Is it mature to respond to such a post
Indirectly through my own livejournal?
Probably not.
But this is what I'm feeling right now,
So I'm going to write about.
And I'm not going to pretend
To hide who I'm talking about
And act like nobody knows what's going on.
I have nothing to hide.

Obviously, we have very different views of maturity.
Getting drunk, living recklessly, and making bad decisions?
That's not maturity.
That's being an average, stupid teenager.
Though I'm sure you must know much more about maturity,
Since you've been alive a whopping six months longer than me.

I'm not going to lie.
I briefly discussed with Lindsey
That I thought Laura was mean to Gayle.
It was a two-minute conversation.
I've had more in-depth discussions about underwear.
It was not a big deal.
It was nothing to freak out about.

And the 15-year-old drama?
There's been no drama until you made some.
So congratulations for "stooping to our level".

Friends move apart.
It happens.
I understand that.
It can be handled maturely.
Everyone seemed perfectly fine going their own ways.
However, there's no need to erase the past.
We've all been through alot together.
We went through boys and crappy teachers and
Self-esteem issues and shitty friends.
We may not connect now,
But that doesn't mean we never did.
It's unecessary to ignore years of friendship
And to be rude to those who once
Loved and cared about you.

But you know what?
I don't really care that much.
I don't know what universe you're wrapped up in,
But I have a life outside of Laura.
And after this blows over,
I'll move on.
I have friends that love me
And I love myself the way I am.
I'm going to continue making good decisions
And not impulsively living only for the moment.
Because I'm mature enough to realize
That there's life besides me and right now.
Forever is half a moment away.
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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2007|08:39 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

-Don't be shy, Fill it all out-

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
No.  They don't like to be confined during bedtime hours.

2. Have you kissed any one on your top list?
No such thing on lj.

3. Are you happy with your looks?
Sometimes.  Depends on my mood.

4. Do you enjoy drama?

5. Are you a girly girl?
No, not really.

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
Oh, dear, is it bad I don't remember?  Lindsey, maybe?

7. Small or large purses?
I generally just carry drawstring bags cause I'm basically a guy.

8. Are you short?
Just a lot.

9. Do you like someone?
Not at the moment.

10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
Girly friend = Wouldn't care
Boy = Have a freakspaz

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
If I wore them one day and they aren't gross, I don't care.

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
Sometimes.  I get elitist when I'm cranky.

13. Are you a bitch?
When I'm feeling elitist (see above^)

14. Are you double jointed?

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
In the middle of my lawn, probably.

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
Probably not.  I'm not that interesting.

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Yeah, Milly, Goebel, etc.

20. How many guys will read this just because it says- Girl Confessions?
I don't think guys care that much.

[ x ] I do wear make up

[ x ] I have cried at a movie theater.

[I wouldn't know, I don't wear it. ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.

[ x ] I get jealous

[ x ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.

[ x ] I love to laugh

[ x  ] I like rap

[  ] i like techno

[ not besides the one song by Carrie Underwood ] I like country.

[ ] I carry a purse.

[ I didn't really like music when I was little.  I just liked the Spice Girls. ] I owned a Spice Girls CD.

[ x ] I owned a Britney Spears CD.

[ ] I get bored watching football

[  ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat 

[ x ] Guys are confusing

[  ] I’ve been called a bad influence.

[ x ] My friends/family are the best.

[ I'm afraid of needles ] I have/had piercings.

Come on ladies, be truthful!

1. What color is your bra?

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Don't care.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?

5. Do you have a best friend?
A few.  Why is there no number 4?  Did I delete it?  Oh well.

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
I'm human, arent' I?

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Not seriously.

8. Do you like your life?
On and off.  A lot of times I feel guilty for having a good life, which kind of makes life suck, so it kind of evens itself out.

9. Do you shop at hollister?

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Not that I'm aware of.

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
About even, I'd say.

13. How long have you had myspace?
I don't have one.

14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Probably.  I was a pretty violent child.

15. What are your biggest fears?
Spiders, guidance counselours, needles, being vulnerable

16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
I used to alot, but not recently.

17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
I don't really give a shit what they do after they cheated on me, they're gone.

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
In my entire life?  Obviously.

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yeah.  I'd like to have my opinion count for something.

21. Are you currently missing someone?

57 Girl Confessions


Preppy or Punk/Goth?
I don't particularly care.

Taller or Shorter?
Taller.  If I picked shorter I'd be out of luck.

Face or Body?
Erm idk, I'd probably have to figure out some sort of body:face cuteness ratio with Steve.

Sweet or Sexy?

Well-educated or Dropout?

Armani or Abercrombie?

City-slicker or Rural?

Contacts or Glasses?
Doesn't matter.

Funny or Serious?

Romantic or Daredevil?

Cute or Hot?

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
Don't care.

Long Hair or Short Hair?
Eh it depends.

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?

Clean-cut or Rough?

Good Dancer or Good Singer?
Good Singer.

Basketball Player or Football Player?
Don't care.

Jock or Rebel?

Smoker or Non-smoker?
Non-smoker.  Bad breath = no fun to snog.

Drunk or Sober?

Druggie or Clean?

college or no college?
Depends on what his plans were.

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
Motorcycles.  They're fun.

Beard/Mustache or Clean-shaven?
Clean-shaven.  Beard/mustache = ow.

Younger or Older?

Player or Loyal?
Player.  I love it when I get cheated on.  *sarcasm*

Bad or Nice?
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