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[Mar. 16th, 2008|11:24 pm] |
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| | Rise - Ben's Brother | ] | I just finished my English project. I'm legitimately depressed now And I didn't even give anybody In the story cancer. (btw, for everyone that reads this Who isn't aware of the project, aka Gayle, I'm supposed to do a song of myself And I did it about foster kids.) I hope everyone else thinks it's depressing Or else I'll look really stupid. Not that I don't do that already. Speaking of which, I bought hot pink jeans. I'm mad pysched. I <3 being ridikulus/black. I'm so done with school. Good things it's SPRING BREAK next week. w00t! I'm asighted for the cruise Aka terrrified. I hope I make friends. I think I've already complained about that on here So Ima shut up. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2008|12:07 am] |
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| | Various Muppet songs | ] | Steve VanderArk makes me sad. Why must he upset Jo?
I'm in the Poconos. Ima skip school tomorrow. That's generally fun. What's not fun is being friend-dumped. My friend Tiff has talked to me all year. Apparently since I don't drink, we were "bound to drift apart." Now, I generally don't think Drinking is a good idea, But I'm not gonna condemn everyone that does. Lord knows I do plenty to my body that isn't healthy. Point is, I've never said anything to Tiffany To imply I think she's a bad person Because she drinks. She doesn't even drink while she's here, So it's not like I'm preventing it. So what's the problem? First Laura, now Tiff. How long before I lose everyone? Is it possible to keep friends you Don't always agree with? Am I doomed to joining FCA and burning books Because I don't want to drink? I don't want new friends. I like the ones I have. Are they going to get sick of me?
I'm excited for my cruise. Not for wearing a bathing suit. I need to buy some willpower. Or some abs. Regardless, I want to go dance. But I'm afraid of dancing by myself. I'll just close my eyes and pretend Steve and lindsey are there. That'll only mildly be a fire hazard. Whatever. I'm excited to hang out with Jake. Hopefully his crazy mom will let him come.
Apologies for the emo rant. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2008|09:25 pm] |
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| | Spice Girls | ] | Me and my life are no longer friends. WHO LOSES TO A JV TEAM!?!?!? WDT?!?!?! I'll never be able to look Knoll in the eye again. I need to be replaced with Ben 27 times over.
On the bright side, Spice Girls =ed (equals in the past tense?) AWESOME! I love me some reincarnation of my childhood (She says like she 53 years old.) 'Twas a great show. Much dancing and singing awesome songs and such. I was happy.
Gayle and my birfday this weekend. Ima pee my pants. WHAT IF IT'S LAME? I'd cry.
Oh dear finals tomorrow. *pees pants* |
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[Feb. 14th, 2008|10:28 pm] |
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| | Johanna (Reprise) - Sweeney Todd | ] | So some random bitching about the news:
So 4 people got killed at another college shooting. That's the fourth this week. I'm not gonna lie, I'm fucking scared shitless. People always go "Oh it's 1 in a million. It won't happen to you." I'm sure that's What those people thought. And 4 in one week? That doesn't sound Like 1 in a million. What if it's one of my siblings Or my friends? I wouldn't be able to deal.
So I was a bit rattled up about that so I Thought I'd make myself feel better by Making fun of people critizing Hannah Montana For not wearing a seatbelt. (Seriously, she has Got to be the most wholesome girl in the business. What is everybody bitching about? Anyway.) I was watching a newsvideo about it and it was all Concert footage, and then it started showing clip Of teenagers getting in car accidents and being thrown Out the windows and shit. Why would you ever show that Without some kind of warning? I don't want to see that shit. I'm paranoid enough without it.
I hate people. |
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[Feb. 12th, 2008|07:46 pm] |
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| | No Such Thing - John Mayer | ] | Hey kiddos. Can I say how much I love Crush Week on Nickelodeon? All they do is crush things! It's basically the best thing in my life. I thought I was going to be all "Blehhhh Valentine's Day I'm lonely and emo." But so far I don't particularly care. Then again, the day hasn't happened yet. Hopefully my apathy will endur.
Omg Gayle, What if Ben Farbe's on the JV debate team Since he's not allowed to do varsity? I would pee my pants!
Ok, that was random. Anywhoooo, Idk why I'm posting. Mostly just procrastination. So I'll just babble on and on.
Last night I was forced to attend a Bible study Because I am queen of my youth group. A lady asked if I was allowed to wear my dress to school Since it was so short So that was mildly exciting. I need to learn not to open my big mouth. I said one thing about being a trained babysitter And now I'm in charge of restructuring the entire nursery program. I don't even like children.
I majorly missed Steve today. Him not being there made me realise How biffle-ly we've gotten this year. I was so lost and confused without him. Spanish was mad boring. As was Pre-Calc. I couldn't even enjoy Tamby time. The entire lunch table was bitchy Because Andrew and Evan were fighting And Kevin was being weird And Steve wasn't there to shut them up. STEVEEEEEEE! DON'T EVER LEAVE ME AGAIN!
Bah someone was supposed to take me Cake-designing. Now I have to wait till Thursday. I'm soooo nervous for our Sweet Sixteen. WHAT IF IT'S LAME?!?! I'd die.
All the colleges want mayyyy bodayyyyyyyy. Aka I've been getting lots of college letters. I sort them on the weather in their location. I'm a good student :) I think I want to go to college in Baltimore. That'd be nice. It's nice in Baltimore. They have an aquarium. It's far enough from home, But not terribly far. And not too far south so that I Might get my black-ass lynched. Or I could pick a college based on academics. But that'd be logical. How the hell am I going to afford Regular college AND law school? I should start prostituting/ Writing essays/ Going to BCC for the first 20 years of college. I'm going to be in debt until I'm 83. Such is life.
That is all. |
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[Jan. 20th, 2008|11:10 pm] |
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| | Hey There Obama | ] | http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SnQOdEXbNQ
This made my life.
Genesis, however, destroys my life. It tricked me into thinking I had a B in chem. That wasn't very nice.
Speaking of which, I should finish that slideshow Or Ben will beat me with a shovel. He's liable to do that sometimes. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2008|02:22 am] |
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| | The Black Parade - MCR | ] | oh midterms....
Debate: They don't exist. I'm super excited to have a B in debate. Its gonna be brilliant. I have no idea what my grade is in that class, so such is life. I think I should get arthritis extra credit points. Too bad Knoll hates me :)
Gym: Oh gym. That doesn't really require an explanation.
Chem: By what must literally be an act of God, I now have an 89 in that class. I might actually have a shot at an A this marking period. What the Jebus?!?! Now I feel like I really need to do well on this midterm. Which I won't, so all of my hopes and dreams will be crushed. How did I go from a 66 to an 89?!?!
Spanish: Im flirting with the line between an A and a B. I won't cry if I get a B.
Precalc: 85.
History:I'm basically guaranteed an A in there. *knock on wood*
GE: Theory = un piece de cake
English: 13th period + friends with andrew + have my own opinions = F. |
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[Jan. 16th, 2008|08:30 pm] |
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| | Kimya Dawson | ] | @:!/£/&:@"-@ FUCKING MOORESTOWN! ughhh I'm so madddd. I'm mostly mad at myself. Ever since my panic attack I've been so shitty. I got ranked fourth. UGH could I kill another legacy?!?! Why do I stutter like a freaking two year old. BLEHHHH!
I generally hate the world. |
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[Dec. 14th, 2007|10:54 pm] |
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| | annoyed | ] | Maturity. Interesting word. What's mature, really?
Is it mature to post mean things about people On a livejournal after accosting them For saying mean things about you behind your back?
Is it mature to respond to such a post Indirectly through my own livejournal? Probably not. But this is what I'm feeling right now, So I'm going to write about. And I'm not going to pretend To hide who I'm talking about And act like nobody knows what's going on. I have nothing to hide.
Obviously, we have very different views of maturity. Getting drunk, living recklessly, and making bad decisions? That's not maturity. That's being an average, stupid teenager. Though I'm sure you must know much more about maturity, Since you've been alive a whopping six months longer than me.
I'm not going to lie. I briefly discussed with Lindsey That I thought Laura was mean to Gayle. It was a two-minute conversation. I've had more in-depth discussions about underwear. It was not a big deal. It was nothing to freak out about.
And the 15-year-old drama? Nonexistant. There's been no drama until you made some. So congratulations for "stooping to our level".
Friends move apart. It happens. I understand that. It can be handled maturely. Everyone seemed perfectly fine going their own ways. However, there's no need to erase the past. We've all been through alot together. We went through boys and crappy teachers and Self-esteem issues and shitty friends. We may not connect now, But that doesn't mean we never did. It's unecessary to ignore years of friendship And to be rude to those who once Loved and cared about you.
But you know what? I don't really care that much. I don't know what universe you're wrapped up in, But I have a life outside of Laura. And after this blows over, I'll move on. I have friends that love me And I love myself the way I am. I'm going to continue making good decisions And not impulsively living only for the moment. Because I'm mature enough to realize That there's life besides me and right now. --------------------------------------------------------------- Forever is half a moment away. |
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[Dec. 7th, 2007|08:39 pm] |
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1. Do you sleep in your bra? No. They don't like to be confined during bedtime hours.
2. Have you kissed any one on your top list? No such thing on lj.
3. Are you happy with your looks? Sometimes. Depends on my mood.
4. Do you enjoy drama? No
5. Are you a girly girl? No, not really.
6. Who was the last person you hugged? Oh, dear, is it bad I don't remember? Lindsey, maybe?
7. Small or large purses? I generally just carry drawstring bags cause I'm basically a guy.
8. Are you short? Just a lot.
9. Do you like someone? Not at the moment.
10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt? Girly friend = Wouldn't care Boy = Have a freakspaz
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty? If I wore them one day and they aren't gross, I don't care.
12. Do you think you’re conceited? Sometimes. I get elitist when I'm cranky.
13. Are you a bitch? When I'm feeling elitist (see above^)
14. Are you double jointed? No.
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? In the middle of my lawn, probably.
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours? No.
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? Probably not. I'm not that interesting.
18. Do you call anybody by their last name? Yeah, Milly, Goebel, etc.
20. How many guys will read this just because it says- Girl Confessions? I don't think guys care that much.
[ x ] I do wear make up
[ x ] I have cried at a movie theater.
[I wouldn't know, I don't wear it. ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[ x ] I get jealous
[ x ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ x ] I love to laugh
[ x ] I like rap
[ ] i like techno
[ not besides the one song by Carrie Underwood ] I like country.
[ ] I carry a purse.
[ I didn't really like music when I was little. I just liked the Spice Girls. ] I owned a Spice Girls CD.
[ x ] I owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I get bored watching football
[ ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat
[ x ] Guys are confusing
[ ] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[ x ] My friends/family are the best.
[ I'm afraid of needles ] I have/had piercings.
Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra? tan
2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys? Don't care.
3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy? Yeah.
5. Do you have a best friend? A few. Why is there no number 4? Did I delete it? Oh well.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken? I'm human, arent' I?
7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery? Not seriously.
8. Do you like your life? On and off. A lot of times I feel guilty for having a good life, which kind of makes life suck, so it kind of evens itself out.
9. Do you shop at hollister? No.
10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you? Not that I'm aware of.
11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on? Yeah.
12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys? About even, I'd say.
13. How long have you had myspace? I don't have one.
14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face? Probably. I was a pretty violent child.
15. What are your biggest fears? Spiders, guidance counselours, needles, being vulnerable
16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? I used to alot, but not recently.
17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind? Yeah.
18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”? I don't really give a shit what they do after they cheated on me, they're gone.
19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something? In my entire life? Obviously.
20. Do you ever wish you were famous? Yeah. I'd like to have my opinion count for something.
21. Are you currently missing someone? No.
57 Girl Confessions
THIS GUY OR THAT GUY?
Preppy or Punk/Goth? I don't particularly care.
Taller or Shorter? Taller. If I picked shorter I'd be out of luck.
Face or Body? Erm idk, I'd probably have to figure out some sort of body:face cuteness ratio with Steve.
Sweet or Sexy? Sweet.
Well-educated or Dropout? Well-educated.
Armani or Abercrombie? Ambercrombie.
City-slicker or Rural? City-slicker.
Contacts or Glasses? Doesn't matter.
Funny or Serious? Funny.
Romantic or Daredevil? Daredevil.
Cute or Hot? Either.
Dark Eyes or Light Eyes? Don't care.
Long Hair or Short Hair? Eh it depends.
Curly Hair or Straight Hair? Straight.
Clean-cut or Rough? Clean-cut.
Good Dancer or Good Singer? Good Singer.
Basketball Player or Football Player? Don't care.
Jock or Rebel? Rebel.
Smoker or Non-smoker? Non-smoker. Bad breath = no fun to snog.
Drunk or Sober? Sober.
Druggie or Clean? Clean.
college or no college? Depends on what his plans were.
Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car? Motorcycles. They're fun.
Beard/Mustache or Clean-shaven? Clean-shaven. Beard/mustache = ow.
Younger or Older? Older.
Player or Loyal? Player. I love it when I get cheated on. *sarcasm*
Bad or Nice? Nice. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2007|10:06 pm] |
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So today.....
Debate: Discussed topics for debate, including nap time, elimination of the male race, etc.
Gym: Leaped out like frogs and inch wormed. Very strenuous workout and such.
Chem: Configuring electrons for no apparent reason.
Spanish: Read a very boring story supposedly about a fan. However, said fan has yet to be mentioned.
PreCalc: The fire drill came!
Lunch: Yelled about water bottles.
US History: Attempted to prevent the Civil War.
GE: Discussed why we're awful.
English: Talked about me being a sterotypical activist and listened to aLo talk about having two guns and a sixpack or something.
After School: Pranced around with the Varsity debate team waiting for the bus. Got on said bus and rode to Cheroke. Arrived to find that said debate did not exist. Yelled at Mr Knoll. Listened to Drew trying to convert the Christians to Christianity. Told him that our rings matched. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2007|07:38 pm] |
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| | Crank Dat Soulja Boy!!!! | ] | mopemopemopemope We didn't get best delegation :( Stupid Moorestown. We're going to TAKE THEIR ASSES DOWN In debate. I'm so madddd. We killed the tradition. I </3 disappointing Indoe. Nick should have gotten An award in full! UGH!
Oh well. It was still fun as hell. I'm gonna miss it. I already feel lonely Without Jill, Tori, and Gayle. What am I going to do without Those crazy hos? They're soooo funny. I can't even say how much I love (mostly) everybody. They're just all crazy.
PMC was the coolest thing ever. It was just debating, all day. Seriously all day. As in 7am-11pm. It was the most nerdy fun I've ever had.
You know what there's no benefit in? Dancing with a boy. They just butt-rape you. And what do you get? Butt-raped. I learned how to soulja boy, though. That was good fun.
I got an honourable mention :). Gayle got a gavel! Yayyyy.
I'm sure Gayle will ramble Much more in depthly. So you guys can go read hers. Love you all<3 |
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[Nov. 10th, 2007|04:42 am] |
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Oh computer! How I've missed you! *hugs*
Well, I'm back from San Francisco. It was quite nice there. Recycling bins everywhere. Pretty plants. There were many hills. And it was quite chilly. Alcatraz was tre cool. Very creepy and such.
Now that I'm home, I've been up to many useful things, Like not catching up on any of my work Or working on my PMC speech. I'm sooo jetlagged. I slept the whole plane ride. So I already slept 6 hours And I was 3 hours off. So my body's just not working. But such is life.
My daddy says my cell phone plan Is getting renewed soon So I can upgrade. An iPhone would only be like $100. I've been looking up stuff And I'm pretty sure it seems like A good idea Beyond the fact that it's freaking awesome. I'm just worried there's not enough memory. I have an 8gb ipod right now that's almost filled up So I don't know if a 8gb iphone is going to hold All of my music, pictures, contacts, messages, and the like. If I had to carry around an iPod to, That would very much defeat the purpose. I should wait until they come out with a bigger one.
I missed obsessively checking genesis. I'm getting a few B's this marking period. I'm less upset about this than I thought I would be. I went into this year with such apathy. Well, not even that. It's not like I don't care. I care, but I'm not willing To work for my grades. So this year the A's aren't just coming And I'm like, wtf? I'll probably pick it up through the year Now that I've realised I have to work. I find it funny that I'm getting B's in Debate and PreCalc. Math is normally my best subject And I'm on the debate team! I expected to get a B in Chem. I may scrape by with an A. Depends how I did on my lab book. *crosses fingers*
This year has been quite boring so far. I shouldn't say that, Because now something bad's going to happen. But whatever. I'm just sort of chilling. Since I'm single, I keep expecting to feel lonely. But I'm not. Actually, the thought of having a boyfriend Stresses me out. This is odd. Usually I spend the time between boyfriends Feeling all crap about myself And thinking I'd be so much better off If only SOMEBODY would love me! I've managed to keep myself out of drama, mostly. It's weird. I feel like everything around me is changing and shifting But I'm just sort of here. Everyone's growing up and making friends And I am just the same as I've always been.
Btw, I'm done with people getting in car accidents. A close family friend from church Got into a bad accident this week. She cracked a bunch of vertebrae(sp?) And whatnot. I'm just so glad she's alive. She was trapped in the car for awhile. So, message to God: I get it. Cars are scary and dangerous.
I <3 Bono |
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[Oct. 26th, 2007|11:07 pm] |
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| | Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day | ] | Helloooo my dearest lj-ers. So I redid my whole layout. I was researching stuff on blackle And was like, Hey, why can't I make my webpage black? So I did.
This week I witnessed the crumbling of an idol. I know I've rambled about this to everyone, But this is my lj, So I ramble if I want to, damnit. Actually, I'm not going to fully ramble. I'll sum it up. Original Impression: Cool, intelligent, outspoken, idealistic activist Actuality: Lazy, irratating, hypocritical druggie 'Twas quite depressing. And hopefully it won't eff up my grade.
Well, that's all for now. |
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[Oct. 25th, 2007|03:42 pm] |
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| | Heartbreak World - Matt Nathanson | ] | Varsity affirmative, bitches.
Whatcha all Knoll about THAT!
Oooooo I'm so happy and excited. But I'm also really scared. I don't wanna be attacked by scary debate people that know what's going on. However, right now I'm too excited to care.
YESSSSSS
PS Sorry for attacking you, Estevan. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2007|09:16 pm] |
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| | excited | ] | So, school tomorrow. Weeyerrrrd.
1 Debate - Knoll Another English class with Knollypants and Gayle! Yayyy!
2 Gym - Curcio Heard he's cool. Gym with Lindsey again :)
3 Chem - Gabehart I'm afraid. I don't know anyone. Hopefully Ben will be there To save me. As usual.
4/5 Spanish - Cosenza Should be fun. Teacher's easy again. And more spanish with Steve, A-Ray, and Casbah!
6/7 PreCalc - Earl Yussss got Earl. With Steve. Exactly what I wanted. And a bonus Kevin, Hwang, and Casbah.
8 Lunch Basically everyone. Should be cool.
9/10 US History - Lange Supposedly the best teacher ever. More chilling with Lindsey.
11/12 GE - Traub Basically know what to expect there. Lindsey, Christina, the whole bit.
13 English - Lopez Apparently me and Lindsey are Siamese twins or something. I'm scared. He makes you write creatively. I'm not creative. KNOOOOLL! COME BACK!
Hey Steve... EFFING MOPED! |
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[Aug. 7th, 2007|12:32 am] |
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Hair is officially highlighted.
( Look how pretty! )
Now, to the hair-chopper on Wednesday night! |
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